asek2 pat blog ni kebanyakkan kita share kegembiraan kita. tapi kita, tak lari dari kesedihan. aku tak tahu mane lagi nak share kalau bukan braers2ku dan wags2 yang tersayang. aku sedih nie. aku tau memang, aku tak pernah serious dalam relationships or whatnots before this. just because i don't believe in it. tapi dengan ijan, aku rasa lain. aku berbangga, pasal finally aku boleh rasa kebahagiaan yang selama ni, aku tak pernah percaya ada. i changed, and i learnt to love her with all my heart. sampai kadang-kadang aku pentingkan dia dari braersku sendiri especially anas (sory anas, love you.). i go the extra mile to be patient, and strong for her. to try to be the best for her. aku try seh. but it seems that at times, she gets hurt, by stuffs in which i don't even have any intention of doing to hurt her. i feel pathetic. aku rasa mcm aku ni tak tahu jaga hati dia langsung. and by actual fact, i ALWAYS try my best. and if my best isn't good enough, mebbe i am not good enough. im not the type to criticise myself or whatsoever tapi aku tengah betul2 sedih ah. aku tau most of the time aku strong but every men has his down moments. im just letting everything out so that i can continue on my journey and lift my head up high.
ada orang pernah bilang aku, "kita kalau buat apa-apa, mesti ikhlas, insyaallah, kalau niat kita baik, semua will go as planned."
i'll just continue loving sincerely, with all my heart from now. as i've been doing since i said go.
ijan, if you're reading this, i have never cared for anyone as much as i cared for you, and i have never been affected by anyone as much as i have been affected by you. you made an impact in my life, and for that i thank you. love you babes, sincerely.
akhir kata:
berat sama dipikul, ringan sama dijinjing. braers tetap jiwa.
-hydil
